The Obstacle

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Man ALIVE – did I ever struggle with this one. Turns out when God asks you to share about that one sin you struggle with most, it’s truly the WORST.

I’ve been putting this off and putting this off, and have had this sitting in my drafts crawling slowly to completion for at least 5 months now.

Well, here we are.

A post on pride.

And I’m pretending I’m not super annoyed about it.

I’ve previously mentioned that I get to journey through Bible study, prayer, and friendship with an amazing group of ladies, and recently we read through the classic by C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity. In it, Lewis devotes a chapter on what he titles, The Great Sin. Let me tell you, referring to pride as the great sin is a bold thing to do, even for C.S. Lewis. But he wasn’t the first to do it. The Scriptures are full of warning against pride, and rightfully so.

In Proverbs 8:13, God says He hates pride and arrogance.

Proverbs 16:5, says the Lord detests all the proud of heart and that they will not go unpunished.

Plenty of the Bible’s “heroes” brought grief upon themselves simply because of their blinding pride.

  • King David was blinded by his pride and didn’t recognize how awful his selfish acts truly were when he raped another man’s wife and had him killed to cover it up.
  • The prophet Jonah was filled with anger over the grace shown a repentant people who had turned back to God.
  • The Apostle Paul, originally, Saul, was physically blinded by God in order to reveal to him how spiritually blinded by pride he truly was.

Pride is the one thing that cannot fit in your journey of faith. I believe that God has much patience and grace for so much of our fleshly struggle, but pride? Pride says, I’ll do it my way. I know best. Pride rejects God before He can even begin to do a work in you.

  • “For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”” – Luke 14:11
  • “But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”” – James 4:6
  • “All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, ‘God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.’” – 1 Peter 5:5

Pride acts a self-imposed barrier between us and God. It parks itself in that space where we should be bowing humbly with open arms ready to receive grace. Instead, pride stands in defiance, with nose upturned and arms crossed, judging anyone who isn’t as clever, attractive, wealthy, charismatic, or gifted. Pride misses the goodness God wants to lavish on His children.

Religion makes us proud of what we have done. The Gospel makes us proud of what Jesus has done.

– Tim Keller

I’m reminded of the story of the prodigal son found in Luke 15. I’ve touched on this parable in a previous POST but at the time, my focus was on the Father in the story. Today, the pride of the eldest son – the dutiful, obedient, prideful son comes to mind.

In Luke 15, the two sons represent the two basic categories every person falls under when approaching God. Try to see where you land.

One son, after trying to make it on his own and wreaking havoc on his life, realizes he cannot save himself and humbly returns to his father, repentant, apologetic, and ready to submit to what he now knows is best for him: to live under the boundaries, but also the favour, of his Father.

The other son, the first born, the one who would have received the double portion of inheritance -follows all the rules and never deviates from what is expected of him.

So when the sinful brother returns and their father responds with lavish grace and celebration, the perfect son is scandalized at this and grows resentful. So resentful in fact, that he rejects the father and His affections.

His pride causes him to believe that his good works warranted not only a reward for his exemplary behaviour, but punishment for his brother’s lousy behaviour as well.

As C.S. Lewis puts it,

Pride gets no pleasure out of having something, only out of having more of it than the next person.

In pride, it isn’t enough that we get to enjoy God’s grace, but pride takes that pleasure to another level where it somehow only feels good to know that others, especially if they’re not like us, do not get to enjoy God’s grace as we do.

It’s heartbreaking to realize that the parable Jesus told does not actually conclude with the prideful brother joining the welcome party. Only that the Father tries to help him see what a joy it is that the lost sheep was found, that the prodigal son had returned.

But there is no mention of how the dutiful son responds. For all we know he simply left. Or he stayed and allowed his crossed arms of pride continue to envelop him tighter into bitterness. I’m betting on the latter. Even though both sons were in need of the Father’s grace and forgiveness.

We can be immoral dead people, or we can be moral dead people. Either way, we’re dead. The mercy of God reaches down and rinses clean not only obviously bad people, but fraudulently good people, both of whom equally stand in need of resurrection. 

– Dane C. Ortlund

So you see, (to quote Lewis again) as long as you are proud, you cannot know God. A proud person is always looking down on things and people: and, of course, as long as you are looking down, you cannot see Something that is above you.

We know that it was through pride that the devil became the devil and through pride that every other sin comes about. The belief that we know better than God about what is best for us.

We say that God is love and we assume that the opposite of love is hate. But as David Platt puts it,

The opposite of love is not hate, it’s pride.

And in the end, this what I absolutely love so much about the Philippians 2 passage I shared about in my Easter post. If there’s anyone who had the right to be proud, it was Jesus. And yet, the writer tells us that though He is literally God, He made Himself NOTHING and became obedient to death.

It concludes by telling us that in the end every knee will bow and every mouth will confess that Jesus is Lord.

So my takeaway is this:

God humbles you, or you humble yourself. Either way, you end humbled.

And I know it goes against everything in our prideful, selfish nature to bow the knee and give up lordship of our own lives, but there’s no other way to truly become all we were created for.

He is a force more powerful than we could ever reckon with, and though He comes gently with sacrificial love, He still hates pride. And I just don’t want my stubborn pride to be an obstacle between us. Do you?

I know there’s a lot to work through on one’s faith journey and it can be scary to trust that Someone else knows what’s best for you. But pride lies to us when it tells us that we know best.

You don’t have to give up your intellect to trust the Bible [and God].
You have to give up your pride.

– R.C. Sproul

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Troubled

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In the spring of 2015, my husband began to look for work outside of our home province of Quebec.

Since Montreal is a big city with plenty of opportunities, most of our friends and family established their lives in basically the same parts of the city where they grew up. And we thought we would too!

But sensing God’s call to explore opportunities elsewhere, we polished up the resumés and scoped out the Help Wanted sites for hiring youth pastors across the country.

When we put our house on the market (but not the children)

As a sidebar, I also happened to be giving up the six years of seniority I had accrued with my local school board teaching History and English at the secondary level. I was sure I’d teach with that board until retirement. Unfortunately, I was just 30 years shy of that goal.

Turns out the anticipation of moving was really only exciting to me in theory. When it got down to it, my heart was troubled.

Life, as I knew it was about to change forever. Apart from my little family, the solid pillars of my life – work and community – were crumbling around me faster than I could grasp them and bottle them up.

I want to tell you that it was an exciting time. I want to say that we were super pumped and eager for what would come next. And although there were many days when that was certainly true, it was often scary too. And in quiet moments, I was troubled.

Waiting for our flight to Leamington for a week of candidating

I didn’t actually want things to change. I didn’t want to uproot my family. I didn’t want to meet new people. I didn’t want to find a new church. Or make new friends. Or live in a new house, find a new job, or new community.

As much as I love surprises and adventure and exploring, I didn’t want those things at the expense of giving up the good things I already had: a close knit family that lived nearby, lifelong friends who knew me to my core…

It’s just easier to move on when your current reality sucks. But mine didn’t suck! I was happy. And I was in no rush to change a thing.

That’s why I think it’s possible to hold those things in tension: peace about change, yet heartache over loss too.

Fortunately, God knows better and He was already putting the wheels in motion to make those changes in our lives before we even recognized our need for them.

Our first youth group event: baseball practice!

What to do with a troubled heart

I’m reminded of Jesus’ disciples in John 14. Like me, the disciples were blissfully content with the status quo and had no interest in drastic changes that would alter their lives in any way.

So when Jesus warns His disciples that He would be leaving them soon and that they could not follow after Him, they were clearly troubled by the news. So Jesus tells them:

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Believe God!

– John 14:1

What strikes me about this is not so much what Jesus says, but what He doesn’t say. He doesn’t say, Do not let your hearts be troubled…

  • Suck it up!
  • You can do it!
  • It’ll be fine!
  • Believe in yourself!
  • You got this!

When our hearts are troubled. When the future is unknown. When the path is confusing. When the plans are unclear.

Believe God!

Not yourself. Not your strengths. Not your gifting, talent, organizational skills, educational background, charisma, charm, or cash.

Just, God. Believe God about what He says about both Himself, and His promises to you.

The only thing we can trust in a changing world of unknowns, is a God who is unchanging, and who makes Himself known.

Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above; it comes down from the Father of lights [the Creator and Sustainer of the heavens], in whom there is no variation [no rising or setting] or shadow cast by His turning [for He is perfect and never changes].

– James 1:17 AMP

For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God.

– Romans 1:20 NLT

As Jesus told His disciples, the only remedy for a troubled heart is to believe God. I had mentioned this in my Easter post, but it bears repeating because I feel it to my core.

Leaning on anything besides Jesus for meaning or purpose will crush under the weight of our expectations for it to sustain us.

Moving was really hard. But it wasn’t impossible! And it didn’t crush me because I believed God for who He is.

  • He is trustworthy and true (Revelation 21:5)
  • He works all things out for my good (Romans 8:28)
  • His works are wonderful, I know this full well (Psalm 139:14)
  • He sets my feet on solid ground (Psalm 40:2)
  • He goes before me (Deuteronomy 31:8)
  • And He sustains me (Psalm 54:4)
Windsor Airport, after our weekend interview when we knew we had found where God was leading us

Core Strength

When Saul was still king of Israel, he felt so threatened by his successor, David, that he made it his mission to destroy him. 1 Samuel 30 describes a time when David and his men discovered that their city was burned and pillaged, and their wives and children were taken captive. It goes on to say that David’s men wept for their families until they had no more strength to weep. And while we’re being honest, I get it! But not David…

David strengthened himself in the Lord.

– I Samuel 30:6

At some point, we all must decide where we’ll turn and what we’ll do when our hearts are troubled. Do we strengthen ourselves like David did, in the Lord, THE Source of strength? Do we believe God for who He is? Do we believe in His promises?

As the disciple Peter told Jesus in John 6:68,

Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life!

Peter recognized that there really is nowhere else to go in hardship but to Jesus. My prayer is that we’ll all get there too!

Preach to the Choir

One of my favourite Psalms ends with the author literally preaching to himself, and almost nothing could be more relatable. We all do this at some point, don’t we?

Psalm 43:5 NLT says:

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again— my Savior and my God!

Other translations use terms like: depressed, downcast, disturbed, overwrought, disquieted, despaired, disheartened, gloomy, dejected, restless, and of course… troubled.

It’s ok to feel these things! God knows all about our brokenness and the broken world that causes pain. He created us. And He created our emotions and feelings too.

But it doesn’t mean He wants us to stay there. Sometimes, we have to do like the psalmist, and preach to ourselves. Put my hope in God! Believe God! Trust God! I will praise Him again… this troubled season won’t last forever.

Exploring the lake the day after after moved

To quote Shakespeare:

All’s Well, That Ends Well

Not to keep anyone guessing, but we did settle nicely into our new life and I wouldn’t change a thing. Not because I haven’t had a troubled heart here too, but because I believe God. And I only want to be where He planned for me. Where else would I go? He has the words of eternal life.

What’s in the Ears

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